Wasted moments

Limelight yesterday night was awesome. The school band is epic! =)

I'm filled with so much regret.
I've been screwing things up lately. So many things.
And I have come to this state where I think too much. Become too paranoid.
It's annoying everyone, even myself. Especially myself.

Worse, people think I've got magic. Like I can work miracles.
I'm sorry but I cant make everyone happy at once.
I'm really bad at multi-tasking. Especially when the tasks I'm expected to handle are two totally different things. Really different.
I'd really love it if at least one of my problems subsided.
But, the world doesnt revolve around just me. Fat hope.

We had music today. And like every other minute, I felt emo.
Had to write something for fathers' day. So I did.

I can’t put my appreciation for you into words. But since it’s the only way to express it, then I should try my best. I may not be able to feel your love now as often as before because we’re so far apart; still I know you love me. I know you love me because of the things you’ve done for the family, for the things you’ve done to make me happy. And the biggest deed you’ve done for me is sacrifice. You sacrificed leaving the family to work overseas. You did it just so the family would have enough income to live. You did it because you’re dad. You did it because you love me, because you love us. Dad, you’re the man. And I’d really mean it if I gave you a mug saying World’s Coolest Dad.
I love you. =)

I just felt like putting this msn conversation:

... says:
its nt ur fault alrite?
... says:
pls dun tink abt it anymore
... says:
i wld get over it v.soon
I-KILL-YA. says:
i just know i did somth wrong.
I-KILL-YA. says:
i know i did.
... says:
i dunno okay
... says:
i dunno its u or mie
... says:
i dunno wad im tinkin
... says:
i dun wish to tink so much'
I-KILL-YA. says:
its me, really. why would i ever feel guilty if it wasnt me.
... says:
cause u r tinking too much
I-KILL-YA. says:
i guess.
... says:
i tel u i m reali sry i dunno if its u or mie i tink n tink i jus cant noe wad i m tinkin
I-KILL-YA. says:
relax.
... says:
if u wld promise mie nt to tink too much i wld relax
I-KILL-YA. says:
i promise.
I-KILL-YA. says:
lk, im nt even thnking right now.
I-KILL-YA. says:
im staring at screen, stoning.
I-KILL-YA. says:
i dont even knw who you are?
I-KILL-YA. says:
are you okay? please be. =)
... says:
yupp
... says:
okay
I-KILL-YA. says:
sure?
... says:
ya ya
I-KILL-YA. says:
im sorry.
... says:
dun say sry
... says:
its nt u who did wrong
... says:
i m sorry
I-KILL-YA. says:
but the thing is, im expectd to multi task now?
... says:
bt it has nth to do wif tt
... says:
nt much
... says:
no
... says:
dun tink so much kay
... says:
if u cant do it i dun wanna force u to do it
... says:
i dun wan u to feel troubled

Peace.
I have the courage now, it's up to you.