Wasted moments

Well happy mothers' day.
I bought my mum a mug that said 'World's Coolest Mum!' and my dad told me I was being way ironic. Haha evil please.

Anyway went studying with Mabu and CM today. =D
Bishan Library has been my third home ever since MYEs started.
Maths is so complicating! Grr. I really dont wanna fail this paper. Please.
The study date was fun, of course.
Had a heart to heart talk with Mabu @ Coffee Bean. We spent a lot of time telling our problems to each other. And yes, Mabu gave me a very loud pep talk. But it was really effective.
Thk you Mabu. (:

I've finally decided to let out everything.

Would you please just come home? It's really frustrating that at a day that means a lot to her, today, you're not home yet. Not even a dumb telephone call from you. Are you stupid? Remember when you did this before, did it really change things around the house? Did it change the way she treated you? Did you get what you want? Certainly not. Wanna know why? Cuz there's nothing that should be changed. It's truly your fault. Take it as the truth, not as another thing that again, is your mistake.

You cant see it, I bet. Wont you just do something that'll gain her trust? Everything's being done behind her back, obviously little things would get her paranoid. Please, knock some sense into yourself. You can use the computer screen to do that, if wherever you are right now has a computer somewhere. You always say she's treating you like you're worth nothing, but honestly have you treated her like she's worth something?

I think what you're doing right now is really, really foolish. Yes, dad thinks so too. I dont know where you are, and this feeling sucks. You dont have to do it for me, not for her either. Just do it to show you can think straight. No offence. And dont gimme that 'you dont understand' speech. Cuz I know I dont but I'm trying to. Everyone's trying to. You just wont let them. Give it a chance will you.

I know I know, I'm 5 years younger than you. What gives me the right to give you advice.. What gives me the right to tell you off.. I havnt gone thru what you have.. I will never.. But the thing is you're making yourself seem less wise than me. Cuz you're doing this. I fxking miss you bodoh.

You're like Mas Selamat 2. So please, just come home.

Peace.