Wasted moments

I think I'm done being emo.
Everybody's moody and I hate it.
So I shudnt be like everybody.
And I've tried but it seems to be some bad habit I cant get rid of.
Classic.

I'm supposed to be at a competition right now.
But that's right, I'm sick.
39.5 degrees Celsius, a heck of a fever.
Yesterday my head hurt so badly I could see veins throbbing on my forehead.
I couldnt sleep too, and woke up @ 3am.
It was really uncomfortable.

My mum tells me that I've not been taking care of myself well.
I dont drink enough water and I exert my body way over it's limit.
I dont eat dinner too.
She's probably right, and so my body's taking revenge on me. Pain.

Eh, I'm sorry I dint do it well enough for you lah.
Have you ever heard of beginners? Oh that's right, you probably havnt.
Cuz you were born with natural talent.
You could do it way better than me when you were 5.
Right?
I'd understand if you corrected me. But noo, you had to make fun of my lousiness.
Well in the first place I dint intend to do it.
I did it for the sake of you being satisfied. Guess I'm wrong.
Dont mean to brag, but if I dint volunteer.. who would have? Think idiot.
Learning a new skill is as hard as trying to lose weight.
So let's see you get rid of that gigantic bulge under your shirt in a day.
When you do, come tell me.
If you dont, you can take my place. Cuz you'll be able to cover the fats.
If you get what I mean.
You should, since you're so prfect.

Peace.